A few nights ago I put Little J down for bed at the same time as I always do. About an hour later, he was still awake, which was odd, and then he started crying. Usually when he cries he will go back to sleep. Unfortunately for us, he kept crying for about 20 minutes. I put down what I was doing and I went in to give him his pacifier and hold him for a bit so he could calm down. After about 10 minutes I put him back in his crib so he could go back to sleep. Immediately he started screaming. I left the room and he kept screaming for a few minutes. I reluctantly went back in to try and calm him down. I had other things I wanted to be doing. The time after Little J goes to bed before bed is some of the only time I get to do what I want to do. Any mom knows that there are some things you just can’t do when your littles are awake. So as I was sitting there rocking Little J in the dark trying to get him to go back to sleep, I kept listing off all the things I wanted to get done and all the things I could have been doing instead of sitting there trying to get my 15-month-old back to sleep. I know, not my proudest moment.
But then it hit me. Nothing in this world, nothing I could possibly be doing at that moment, was more important than sitting in that chair holding my son. Nothing was as important as giving him the comfort he needed so he could fall back asleep. Basically, nothing was as important as being there at that moment to help my son.
Nothing is as important as your kids and your family. Sure, it is important to have a good job and to work for what you need in life. Sure, it is important to take care of yourself and make sure you give yourself time that you need. But families are the most important thing in the world. Without families, we wouldn’t exist.
So next time I am playing with Little J or hear him crying at 2am, I am going to remember that nothing is as important as giving him the time he needs without complaining and without doing it half-heartedly. The Mister and I are the most important people in his world right now and I definitely want to do my part to keep it that way and raise him right.
Because that is what being a mommy is all about.